Thursday, December 18, 2008
its been awhile since i posted out my own personal words on this blog.
i've been letting songs describe what i've been going through ever since the holidays started, and i'd say its been doing a fine job in description, but like all good songs nothing changes, cause its just music and lyrics, no where near a motivational, divine reformation or a landmark epiphany or rising force, much to my dismay or rather, everyones (whom relates to the song) dismay.
the odd thing about music and all its charm, its depth and intricate compositions, at the end of the day it doesnt break barriers as much as we like. certainly the odd lyric or two might twang your emotional pangs and fit into that jigsaw you piece you miss, but at the end of the song you'd be stuck in square one. awe inspiring frantic fluid movements give you the sudden drive to try and compose and train to play like they play it, but at the end of the day theres just a limit, a cap to how much you can emulate and replicate and create. that happy piece might motivate you one day, but something called reality would kick you in the nuts after your smile emerges. that sad, moving piece might give you a shoulder to cry on, but thats that.
and yet music is the only place where i can find temporal solace and respite from daily rigours.
everyone is born with their limitations and everything in life, i mean everything, has laws and ceilings for you to bump your head into.
its just the way things work, its just how the wind blows and how the cookie crumbles.
sure you can wait, wait for that wall between to break, but its just a matter of time, of when.
when is such a big word, it always shoves its ugly rear at my face in all its taunting, melancholic and humbling glory.
