Monday, June 19, 2006

its funny how time flies so fast, u sit back, and think.

and then u laugh, because you remember something fun, something hilarious, something really enjoyable that u and the others did before.

you smile, because you were really happy, super satisfied, or marvelled at your own capacity to succeed in something you really have passion on.

you grin and heave a happy sigh, because you remember you and your loved one/s doing all that fun things together, and having a really memorable or just a simple, non expensive but yet a happy time together.

you frown because you think abt ur defeats, your failures and shortcomings, the foul winds that caught you by surprise and the negatives that you couldnt stop by yourself.

but then you smile again, brightly, because you realise you made it this far, your typing this entry down. you realise the friends you've made, and the things you've learnt. advice ppl has given u. the lessons learnt from past situations. the achievements u made because of ur own resolve, be it acadamically, physically, or just a small happy inner victory of you getting that favourite pair of shoes, or going out with this really cute girl/or guy you never dreamed of dating. you come to think that hey im still living. breathing. looking at this post. ( haha shawn very funny. -__- )

I've realised that hey, my life isnt that bad after all. is urs really that bad ? are u expriencing that doomsday you actually set for urself, when u blogged down all that depressing stuff. is your life dead ? guess not.

WELL !

tmr im off to lim chu kang 4th SIR ( singapore infantry regiment ) camp 1 to become an infantry recce (read: scout) . only heaven knows the horrors/happiness that awaits me there. pray hard for me guys, i'll be back hopefully the nxt week end. till then, stay happy. i'll be back to fill in all the juicy details of my oh-so-interesting post. HAHA. goodnight, and enjoy the world cup while it lasts.

{ 12:36 am }

Friday, June 16, 2006

hey guys been awhile since i blogged. been slacking at home or going out more or less after passing out of BMT.. unfortunately now im quite sick and i thought things couldnt get any worse.

today is posting day.

and so my NS life takes a weird, peculiar turn. for the worst.
as i was scrolling down the nsf website, i was crossing my fingers and hoping for the best..
and as you all know im quite anti-ns and would prefer the easier way out in life, i was expecting something slack and better still, non combat related.

lo and behold big brother gave me a big surprise, just like the airplane gift osama gave bush out of pure compassion and respect.


i scrolled down in dismay and utter disappointment, as the words blinked across the screen :

your vocation is INF RECCE 4 SIR

i felt like giving a middle finger to every bloody officer that put in the orders for me to become an infantry scout. what the fuck sia. i felt like joining Al-Qaeda suddenly.

its quite ironic, everytime i wish for something to happen, fate takes me by the hand and twirls me round to the opposite direction. so instead of me getting a nice, relaxing post like driver, regimental police,scdf or what ever shit there is in the fucking saf, i get the most chiong sua, underpaid and mentally tiring job.

" Commander SAF BMTC wishes you a meaningful and memorable experience in the SAF. "

yeah right. i hate the SAF. why does Singapore care so much about defence anyway? we'll lose in any war anyway. fuck. ask lky or what ever mp go serve his own army la.

here's a list of positives i heard about an infantry recce :

1) jungle cap instead of helmet. WTF u call that a perk or positive ? bloody hell i bet that jungle cap can protect my skull damn fucking well.

2) learn to ride motorbike. cheebye i want to learn motor i learn outside lah, need big brother to teach me meh . besides i rather drive a car.

3) use sophisticated technology. woopee. YAY! i get to carry heavy loads so i can BREAK MY BACK FURTHER.

4) highly reknowned and recognised in the army. this is my personal favourite. i dont need any recognition what so ever can? i dont believe in ego building and macho shit. its pretty obvious the army for many is a chance to inflate their male egos. i dont need an ego-trip thank you very much.


after much frustration and agony in that short span of time whilst browsing through the webbie, i've finally come to a conclusion. i'll just Serve And Fuckoff. what to do, big brother decides everything, most often in an unjust, unfulfilling way. talk about meritocracy. what did i do to deserve this seriously. im not being rewarded for my deeds.

so boys and girls, I'll prolly be very busy from now on, fulfilling my duties every macho manly burly hunky man has to go through. i just hope my remaining 1 year 8mths will pass like the wind. sigh. lan lan suck thumb.

{ 3:31 pm }



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