catch your breath
hit the wall
scream out loud
as you start to crawl
back in your cage
the only place
where they will
leave you alone.
'cause the weak will seek the weaker
until they've broken them

could you get it back again?
would it be the same
fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense
left you with no defense
they tore it down.

and i have... Felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same

Locked inside
the only place
where you feel sheltered
where you feel safe..
You lost yourself
in your search to find
something else
to hide behind.
The fearful always preyed upon your confidence
did they see the consequence?
when they pushed you around
The arrogant built kingdoms
made of the different ones
Breaking them 'til they've become
just another crown

Refuse to feel,
Anything at all
refuse to slip,
Refuse to Fall
can't be weak,
Can't stand still
you watch your back,
'Cause no one will

you don't know why they had to go This far
traded your worth for these scars
for your only Company
don't believe the lies that they've told to you
Not one word was true you're alright,
You're alright,
You're alright.

and i have... felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same.

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and so im blogging in quite an unfamiliar circumstance, in the morning. yeah was supposed to go jogging but the weather decided to turn foul and rain on me, so here i am typing an entry unusually early.

well this week has pretty much been incredibly dull, apart from thurs and friday. apart from the fact that i went camp on the other days, i was unconsciously counting down the months everyday till my operational ready date. 4 more months of nonsense to endure, of which i'd be out to face the true rigours of society.

alright so thursday was pretty much the most boring day in camp because practically the entire camp was on leave and off-in-lieu. dont ask me but somehow or rather everyone decided to pull a fast one on the remaining few of us. but wasnt so bad because i met mel later on for a makan session and some pooling and good talking.

so its down to yesterday. had the first half of the day off because later on in the afternoon my entire battalion had to head to chinese garden (there was some midautumn festival nonsense going on where there was a carnival like thing for the entire vicinity of chinese garden.) for a family day carnival which was totally crap and bullshit in my opinion. the place was boring, hot, and wait, did i mention boring ?

so the few of us (budi,taufiq,fairiz,veus,khai and fadli) decided to zao from the place by hook or by crook because of we had stayed there any longer i would have certainly pulled out all my hair on my head and jumped into the pond with the komodo dragons because that certainly looked more interesting.

so we first gathered and sized up our options. the place had two main gates, of which one was guarded by a few master sergeants, DXOs and officers. more or less that route was a no-go, so we headed to the rear, where it was guarded by the clerks from S3 branch. our efforts were in vain as they turned us back (to my disappointment). to add to our misery, a warrant officer with horrible english, bad dressing sense, ugly haircut and horseshit manners came up to us and challenged us rather provocatively. he kept asking us where we were from, whether we would rather be working in camp and then proceeded to use the old, tried-and-tested-but-unnecessarily-stupid method of scaring NSFs today - " you want me to charge you? " what nonsense. not only did we NOT do anything wrong, we are not in camp, and to add, we are in civilian attire. the fact that he 'brought' and used his rank like a fucking shield out of camp already adds to his weakness in character and poor people relation skills. why hide behind your rank even ? i guess your too small to speak on your own two fat feet. do you even know what is the difference between talking to an animal and a human being ? do you even know what is the word deferential ? wait wait. i seriously doubt in your intellectual ability to understand where im coming from, less even know how to spell "ass" out.

moving on, we escaped by climbing over a fence leading to the japanese gardens where we headed to town via bus. ate at far east, chatted, had starbucks after my incessant nagging haha then proceeded to cine to play lan, watch the skeleton key (of which i enjoyed watching fairiz's expressions during the more shocking moments than the show itself hahah) which was around 2.5 stars for me. after that we played some xbox before heading to spice at rivervalley to have our supper. here's the pictures.

the scenery.

so thats about it.

can you miss someone who probably doesnt give a twocents abt you?