Monday, September 24, 2007
okay, so i have a feminine face. thanks ok myheritage. i could have chosen the male one, but it would be below 50% anyway. this is like a 65% match. wonderful. hahaha.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
What a skeletal wreck of man this is.
Translucent flesh and feeble bones,the kind of temple where the whores and villains try to tempt the holistic domes.
Running ramped with free thought to free form, and the free and clear.
When the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a laundry mat to sift and focus on the bigger, better, now.
We all have a little sin that needs venting,virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems are ripped from the branches of office, do you know where your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?
When in doubt inside your atavistic allure, the value of a summer spent, and a winter earned.
For the rest of us, there is always Sunday.
The day of the week that reeks of rest, but all we do is catch our breath,
To watch the knives zigzag between our aching fingers.
A vacation is a countdown, T minus your life and
counting, time to drag your tongue across the sugar cube,and hope you get a taste.
I can go on and on but lets move on, shall we?
Say, your me, and I'm you, and they all watch the things we do,and like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs, really haven't felt like this in years.
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse, let me go,and punch me into the dead spout again.That's where you go when there's no one else around,it's just you, and there was never anyone to begin with, now was there?
Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards with their thumb on the pulse,and a finger on the trigger. anyway Government is another way to say "better than you."
It's like ice but no pick, a murder charge that won't stick,it's like a whole other world where you can smell the food,but you can't touch the silverware.
Huh, what luck. Fascism you can vote for
Isn't that sweet?And we're all gonna die some day, because that's the American way,and I've drunk too much, and said too little,when your gaffer taped in the middle, say a prayer, say a face, get your self together and see what's happening.
I'm sorry, I could go on and on but it's time to move on so, remember: you're a wreck, an accident.
Forget the freak, your just nature.Keep the gun oiled, and the temple cleaned shit snort,and blaspheme, let the heads cool, and the engine run.
Because in the end, everything we do, is just everything we've done.
Saturday, September 08, 2007
catch your breath
hit the wall
scream out loud
as you start to crawl
back in your cage
the only place
where they will
leave you alone.
'cause the weak will seek the weaker
until they've broken them
could you get it back again?
would it be the same
fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense
left you with no defense
they tore it down.
and i have... Felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same
Locked inside
the only place
where you feel sheltered
where you feel safe..
You lost yourself
in your search to find
something else
to hide behind.
The fearful always preyed upon your confidence
did they see the consequence?
when they pushed you around
The arrogant built kingdoms
made of the different ones
Breaking them 'til they've become
just another crown
Refuse to feel,
Anything at all
refuse to slip,
Refuse to Fall
can't be weak,
Can't stand still
you watch your back,
'Cause no one will
you don't know why they had to go This far
traded your worth for these scars
for your only Company
don't believe the lies that they've told to you
Not one word was true you're alright,
You're alright,
You're alright.
and i have... felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same.
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and so im blogging in quite an unfamiliar circumstance, in the morning. yeah was supposed to go jogging but the weather decided to turn foul and rain on me, so here i am typing an entry unusually early.
well this week has pretty much been incredibly dull, apart from thurs and friday. apart from the fact that i went camp on the other days, i was unconsciously counting down the months everyday till my operational ready date. 4 more months of nonsense to endure, of which i'd be out to face the true rigours of society.
alright so thursday was pretty much the most boring day in camp because practically the entire camp was on leave and off-in-lieu. dont ask me but somehow or rather everyone decided to pull a fast one on the remaining few of us. but wasnt so bad because i met mel later on for a makan session and some pooling and good talking.
so its down to yesterday. had the first half of the day off because later on in the afternoon my entire battalion had to head to chinese garden (there was some midautumn festival nonsense going on where there was a carnival like thing for the entire vicinity of chinese garden.) for a family day carnival which was totally crap and bullshit in my opinion. the place was boring, hot, and wait, did i mention boring ?
so the few of us (budi,taufiq,fairiz,veus,khai and fadli) decided to zao from the place by hook or by crook because of we had stayed there any longer i would have certainly pulled out all my hair on my head and jumped into the pond with the komodo dragons because that certainly looked more interesting.
so we first gathered and sized up our options. the place had two main gates, of which one was guarded by a few master sergeants, DXOs and officers. more or less that route was a no-go, so we headed to the rear, where it was guarded by the clerks from S3 branch. our efforts were in vain as they turned us back (to my disappointment). to add to our misery, a warrant officer with horrible english, bad dressing sense, ugly haircut and horseshit manners came up to us and challenged us rather provocatively. he kept asking us where we were from, whether we would rather be working in camp and then proceeded to use the old, tried-and-tested-but-unnecessarily-stupid method of scaring NSFs today - " you want me to charge you? " what nonsense. not only did we NOT do anything wrong, we are not in camp, and to add, we are in civilian attire. the fact that he 'brought' and used his rank like a fucking shield out of camp already adds to his weakness in character and poor people relation skills. why hide behind your rank even ? i guess your too small to speak on your own two fat feet. do you even know what is the difference between talking to an animal and a human being ? do you even know what is the word deferential ? wait wait. i seriously doubt in your intellectual ability to understand where im coming from, less even know how to spell "ass" out.
moving on, we escaped by climbing over a fence leading to the japanese gardens where we headed to town via bus. ate at far east, chatted, had starbucks after my incessant nagging haha then proceeded to cine to play lan, watch the skeleton key (of which i enjoyed watching fairiz's expressions during the more shocking moments than the show itself hahah) which was around 2.5 stars for me. after that we played some xbox before heading to spice at rivervalley to have our supper. here's the pictures.
the scenery.
hit the wall
scream out loud
as you start to crawl
back in your cage
the only place
where they will
leave you alone.
'cause the weak will seek the weaker
until they've broken them
could you get it back again?
would it be the same
fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense
left you with no defense
they tore it down.
and i have... Felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you,
I've felt the same
Locked inside
the only place
where you feel sheltered
where you feel safe..
You lost yourself
in your search to find
something else
to hide behind.
The fearful always preyed upon your confidence
did they see the consequence?
when they pushed you around
The arrogant built kingdoms
made of the different ones
Breaking them 'til they've become
just another crown
Refuse to feel,
Anything at all
refuse to slip,
Refuse to Fall
can't be weak,
Can't stand still
you watch your back,
'Cause no one will
you don't know why they had to go This far
traded your worth for these scars
for your only Company
don't believe the lies that they've told to you
Not one word was true you're alright,
You're alright,
You're alright.
and i have... felt the same as you,
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same as you
I've felt the same.
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and so im blogging in quite an unfamiliar circumstance, in the morning. yeah was supposed to go jogging but the weather decided to turn foul and rain on me, so here i am typing an entry unusually early.
well this week has pretty much been incredibly dull, apart from thurs and friday. apart from the fact that i went camp on the other days, i was unconsciously counting down the months everyday till my operational ready date. 4 more months of nonsense to endure, of which i'd be out to face the true rigours of society.
alright so thursday was pretty much the most boring day in camp because practically the entire camp was on leave and off-in-lieu. dont ask me but somehow or rather everyone decided to pull a fast one on the remaining few of us. but wasnt so bad because i met mel later on for a makan session and some pooling and good talking.
so its down to yesterday. had the first half of the day off because later on in the afternoon my entire battalion had to head to chinese garden (there was some midautumn festival nonsense going on where there was a carnival like thing for the entire vicinity of chinese garden.) for a family day carnival which was totally crap and bullshit in my opinion. the place was boring, hot, and wait, did i mention boring ?
so the few of us (budi,taufiq,fairiz,veus,khai and fadli) decided to zao from the place by hook or by crook because of we had stayed there any longer i would have certainly pulled out all my hair on my head and jumped into the pond with the komodo dragons because that certainly looked more interesting.
so we first gathered and sized up our options. the place had two main gates, of which one was guarded by a few master sergeants, DXOs and officers. more or less that route was a no-go, so we headed to the rear, where it was guarded by the clerks from S3 branch. our efforts were in vain as they turned us back (to my disappointment). to add to our misery, a warrant officer with horrible english, bad dressing sense, ugly haircut and horseshit manners came up to us and challenged us rather provocatively. he kept asking us where we were from, whether we would rather be working in camp and then proceeded to use the old, tried-and-tested-but-unnecessarily-stupid method of scaring NSFs today - " you want me to charge you? " what nonsense. not only did we NOT do anything wrong, we are not in camp, and to add, we are in civilian attire. the fact that he 'brought' and used his rank like a fucking shield out of camp already adds to his weakness in character and poor people relation skills. why hide behind your rank even ? i guess your too small to speak on your own two fat feet. do you even know what is the difference between talking to an animal and a human being ? do you even know what is the word deferential ? wait wait. i seriously doubt in your intellectual ability to understand where im coming from, less even know how to spell "ass" out.
moving on, we escaped by climbing over a fence leading to the japanese gardens where we headed to town via bus. ate at far east, chatted, had starbucks after my incessant nagging haha then proceeded to cine to play lan, watch the skeleton key (of which i enjoyed watching fairiz's expressions during the more shocking moments than the show itself hahah) which was around 2.5 stars for me. after that we played some xbox before heading to spice at rivervalley to have our supper. here's the pictures.
the scenery.
so thats about it.
can you miss someone who probably doesnt give a twocents abt you?
Monday, September 03, 2007
re-entry
back arched into oblivion, a ship gets torned asunder
the hot sun burns with sheer efficiency to the point
you'd expect me to just dry out and die.
the shades that others might provide you seemed more than enough.
for the small stature i have
i'm casting such a Thin Shadow and its just fantastic.
the linens in the breeze just can't dry
the chickens chuckling in the pantry won't understand why
deep down inside a chasm a candle cries.
Well then,
Speak up.
My ears are growing weary.
I’ll sing this to the end
and watch the waves crash over me one more time.over and over again.
"You know its not too much to overcome with enough
time to turn it all around."
In a picture perfect scenery I’ve become a
stick figure illustration.
My eyes roll back and focus on what’s
ahead.
I can still stand if you lend the hand to
brace me
but
but I know I’ll have to take this on my own .
