Wednesday, December 06, 2006
been awhile since i last set my mark on this blog. looks like its becoming damn redundant.. no tags. me not posting. and stuff. they should invent a blog telephatic thingy whereby whatever i think gets posted online at will. so lazy pigs like me need not type so much. lol.
anyway, this past month has been quite busy, hectic..ever since my latest posting to sembawang camp as a store i/c. on course now, so its lectures and lessons non stop, quite tiring i must say.. because the instructors have quite horrible pronounciation problems.. or u could say english probs. it was funny at first, but now, its just plain irritating. plus their boring. so what comes out from their mouths just turns out to become jibberish to my ears. talk about an attentive solider.
but i guess sitting down and stoning and acting like an obediant puppet takes many pains away.. like thinking. haha i know but sometimes thinking can lead to more thinking. and sometimes we get carried away. okay this is damn retarded shall stop this paragraph right here.
anyway is it just me. or is army really taking its toll ? i find myself incapable of expressing myself adequately nowadays ( nows-a-dares as pronounced by some bright individuals) . i cant really type like i used to, all that profound words and stuff. been reading books all that, but still, the decaying of the brain i guess is inevitable. i'll just pray and hope i dont ORD as a complete vegetable.
life's been pretty normal now. my duties at christmas eve have been changed to the 22th and 27th, to my delight.. though having to do duties at all totally urks me. but every nsf has to go through this i guess. so no complaints.
been practicing guitar like crazy. hope i improve. cos i can tell my new band mates getting frustrated at my lack of skill. inadequacies shortcomings being fucking lousy. lol my paragraphs are turning out to be totally random.
today it rained so heavily but being the crazy/boring person i am, i walked and strolled through it on my way home. the sound of the water pounding down like harsh whispers drowned out all my thoughts and i felt really free and cleansed. if only it could just wash all my troubling thoughts away along with every regret and disappointment.. permanantly..
but i guess their here to stay. as they always say; misery loves company.
