Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Degree 1: The Glass Prison




[I. REFLECTION]


Cunning, Baffling, Powerful
Been beaten to a pulp
Vigorous, Irresistable
Sick and tired and laid low
Dominating, Invincible
Black-out, loss of control
Overwhelming, Unquenchable
I'm powerless, have to let go


I can't escape it
It leaves me frail and worn
Can no longer take it
Senses tattered and torn
Hopeless surrender
Obsession's got me beat
Losing the will to live
Admitting complete defeat


Fatal Descent
Spinning around
I've gone too far
To turn back round
Desperate attempt
Stop the progression
At any length
Lift this obsession


Crawling to my glass prison
A place where no one knows
My secret lonely world begins
So much safer here
A place where I can go
To forget about my daily sins


Life here in my glass prison
A place I once called home
Fall in nocturnal bliss again
Chasing a long lost friend
I no longer can control
Just waiting for this hopelessness to end



[II. RESTORATION]


Run - fast from the wreckage of the past
A shattered glass prison wall behind me


Fight - past walking through the ashes
A distant oasis before me
Cry - desperate crawling on my knees
Begging God to please stop the insanity
Help me - I'm trying to believe
Stop wallowing in my own self pity


"We've been waiting for you my friend
The writing's been on the wall
All it takes is a little faith
You know you're the same as us all"


Help me - I can't break out this prison all alone
Save me - I'm drowning and I'm hopeless on my own
Heal me - I can't restore my sanity alone


Enter the door
Desperate
Fighting no more
Help me restore
To my sanityAt this temple of hope
I need to learn
Teach me how


Sorrow to burn
Help me return
To humanity
I'll be fearless and thorough
To enter this temple of hope


Believe
Transcend the pain
Living the life
Humility
Opened my eyes
This new odyssey
Of rigorous honesty


Serenity
I never knew
Soundness of mind
Helped me to find
Courage to change
All the things that I can


"We'll help you perform this miracle
But you must set your past free
You dug the hole, but you can't bury your soul
Open your mind and you'll see"


Help me - I can't break out this prison all alone
Save me - I'm drowning and I'm hopeless on my own
Heal me - I can't restore my sanity alone



[III. REVELATION]


Way off in the distance
I saw a door I tried to open
I tried forcing with all of my will and still
The door wouldn't open


Unable to trust in my faith
I turned and walked away
I looked around, felt a chill in the air
Took my will and turned it over


The glass prison which once held me is now gone
A long lost fortress
Armed only with liberty
And the key of my willingness


Fell down on my knees and prayed


"Thy will be done"


I turned around, saw a light shining through
The door was wide open........

{ 11:22 pm }



shawn ang
leo | 3rd august 87'
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