Wednesday, February 02, 2005
read thru my previous post
the post of enlightenment, realised it was really unlike me. i mean what happened to the ever lamenting sickening shawn that kept to himself and drowned himself everytime he confronted danger or trouble or disappointment.
today, i tried hard to keep up with my high as from the few other yesterdays, but it seems to just fade. still the battle rages on and i struggle.
my right knee and thigh hurts, i guess its from the carried on fatigue from that match on saturday.
anyway, did some analysis when i came home early today.
browsed through blogs of ppl i didnt know, but was known by my friends somehow or rather. jumping from link to link, found a blog abt a tanglin girl surviving the rigours of jc, or so it seems.
cant handle the stress bla bla . wait, wait till the mid way point and u could almost feel the adrenaline seeping through your nose. haha. it was all sweet back then, when jc was seen as the haven of social enlightenment and of course, a breeze in the park if "i put in regular study patterns" . miss those few months of blind bliss. well my advice is just tahan la huh. i'm being stretched now too . arghggh. and ! i saw this comment. er went something like, "the way he talked..this seperated what a chinese high student and a tanglin student" blaaaaaa . i think thats all wrong and theres no difference. never look down on our sch. never.. i mean , whats the deal with all this good school bad school ting. the idea whereby neighbourhood schools behave in this way, that way.. these good schools behave this way , the correct way. i believe everyone is great in their on right, and the school does not in no way make a difference. (although the pillars of society may deny my view.) so much for sophistication too. im fed up with all that mambo jumbo on being the intellect, cant we be simple for once. oh well..
by no way this comment was meant to be a diss anyway, its not my style. i apologise if anything thing went wrong. and now after typing all that, i feel a little stupid but nevermind, my fingers cant stop moving.
went thru other blogs, saw those people i term " tag haters" they tag and diss and cuss and just do everything to make a person pissed. i remember i had one such case. whats up with this people, taking delight in hatin'. they should all get a life, or just kill themselves since they hate everyone.
ohh well. today wasnt such a great day. my mom once again back to the usual. and im drowning myself.
and i ended up posting a "what-i-did-today-i-hate-it-so-much-blog" entry. wee.
