Thursday, October 28, 2004
the mood to blog fades everyday.
i can no longer find the words to express my self sometimes.
i seem cool headed and confident but im not..
there goes the vicious cycle again ... churning me inside out,
depressing the lessons i taught i knew was true..
changing fabrications of an old lie..
we all go through it, i cant take it.
blame it on our weak feeble . no my weak feeble mind.
no matter how i try to run, the shadow grows bigger with each turn
the past echoes even more.
it hearkens
never ending comprimise..
its no bed of roses..
that sick cycle of distorted feelings
of endless regression..
the future is bleak and dull
seperation is inevitable and uncontrollable
are we going to make it whole
as we approach that cessation.
ive destroyed that tarmac of redemption
all i can do is wait and remain idle
i remain forgotten
society depends not on our differences but the seperation within
coherence is out of place here
we all know how weak. no how weak the human is.
fallible gullible
i feel intangible..
that emotional barriers
i wasted it all
it all fell apart..
i'll never find it..
