Sunday, August 15, 2004

havent been updating for such a long time.. have been really busy with school work and shit..
jc life is tough no matter what.
and here am i typing.
the irony.
oh.
what the heck.
its been awhile since ive
taken my intellectual capacity to a higher level.
oh well i guess im just dumb.
found that out during gothic tutorial.
stephanie chua commented that what i did wasnt my work.
what rubbish. what daft ideas she must have.
aside from that, ive never felt so much more dumb and saliently depressed as the days go by.
its true ladies and gentlemen. Ive finally hit rock bottom.
as mentioned many times by my long winded self such primal emotions are highly probable to be experienced by the individual. the human individual. oh how flawed we are.
we boast how extravagent how sophisiticated we are as compared to other animals in the world.
such arrogance isnt always obvious.
look at the things we do. analyse.
take a step back and realise how annoying we are.
a classic example would be the studying of the gothic.
come on please wake up. stop subverting stop transgressing.
because you cant. we live in a world where apples are meant to be dropped.
where humans are what we are.
dualities exist. so ? big deal.
we strive to be perfect and obtain too much knowledge.
why can we just live life.
i dont know the answers for this.
ya.
its too complexed.
and once again ive never felt so
useless.
inadequate.
the coward in me never fails to surface.
why can i do things right for a change?
life isnt meant for living.
its meant for suffering.

miss u.

"all things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but all things edify not."



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