Monday, July 19, 2004
writing on an empty stomach.. yup.. haven had my dinner yet.. in fact i just got home frm skool aft playin bball.. played with the bball team for a brief moment.. realised some arent so high and mighty as they should be.. but they are given the right oppourtunities.. i envy them..
today im feeling really down and regressed. no matter how i train.. in whatever area i want to be good at.. i seem to fall.. i can never be as good as i dream to be~
aspirations. dreams. we all want them dont we. well i dont want them anymore...
the thought sickens me.. to be bold and climb the mountain.. only to slip and dive down in the great bleakness.. when will i be given that golden opportunity to acheive my dream ? i dont know.. i really dont know.. and im afraid to find out for fear that the truth bears disastrous consequences.. ya im a coward..
ive never failed to fail.. my golden years are over i guess..
sorrow is the child of too much joy
but then again.. happiness would lose its meaning without depression..
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